A night to remember

yesterday night was a blast and such a memorable event. it was the junior welcoming night for first year medical students and second year seniors are invited. well. i mean, they have to be there for it's like a night where seniors and juniors can interact and we are doing present exchange too. i got a bracelet from my dear buddy but do not think i will use it frequently. well. i will be trying my best to put it into good use i guess. i like it because it's very pretty.

everyone else was like so darn pretty and super tall. duh. i did not have make up on and i dont even bother to get a pair of heels. luckily i didn't wear my snickers there. well. i choose really not to put on makeup and buy heels. somehow, i feel abase. i always feel inferior whenever i am with people. oh there goes. that's one of the reason why i seldom join in the big crowd and choose to go for lonesomeness, sometimes. it's because i feel degraded in front of those amazing people around me and it's hard for me to deal with my transient emotional change, sometimes. though, i would still put on a smile and move on. it works better when the thing is undoubtedly unbearable. i would be faking. i always do that because i have always been in detriment because i have unlimited want and infinite desire. things that i am not even sure if they are mine and it always feels like everything belongs to others. it sounds odd aint it? it's like hypocrite.

okay. enough. the night was really memorable and enjoyable. i laughed hard and a lot. yet, bitterness lingers around. i sometimes wish and pray hard that i can know things beforehand. duh. i do understand the consequences of it. sometimes, it's better to be indifferent because ignorance is bliss.

i have been having this strong insane intense emotions and i always put on a smile, a fake bogus smile. sooner, time will cure i guess. i am listening to songs to help me deal with everything. and i have my future to ponder upon. there is always a brand new day. do not always dwell in the past and do cherish the present, anticipated for the future. XD

Bruno Mars-Just the way you are

Jewel-Hole in my heart