our song

i always get reminders from my parents if things are to get any obstructions when i have to get it done and that it is normally centered on my incapability to make a thorough organize before implementing it. well, the thing is that i always assumed that luck is on me and that things will turn out just perfectly exactly as the way i want it to be but sometimes that is not the case.

nonetheless, in studies, i always make thorough planning, i mean i always have things in mind of what to do and complete and that it has got to be done in order for me to proceed. i don't like having timetable and schedule because i am sure that i will never ever going to follow it. besides, it would definitely be very dull like having a different meal each day in a week but it is repetitive in which the next week the cycle continue. oh. how i like the timetable for the class in ukm. we have different timetable for each week and sometimes there is only one lecture. in addition, by having a timetable, i sort of going to bind to it and lose my free will on doing other things. it needs commitment and i think that i am not going to be able to fulfill it.

therefore, when my Aunt called telling that she's coming over and going to bring me for spending a night at her house tomorrow, i am bewildered. i am so dead. i am going to do my revision and study this weekend. i have so much to catch up and that i need this weekend to strengthen my understanding and concept on the various mind-boggling topics in which memorizing plays an important role but she's insisting that i need a break. i am so freaked out and i so want to burst to tears. my first response was a little bit rude, i do admit it as i told her of my dire condition but this is all for the sake of my future. it is going to be my first module exam. i don't want to fail it. i had been missing the lectures and studies for days and i couldn't take it anymore. i seriously desperately need the weekend to catch up in my studies.

what can i do? i need my own moment. i need this desk and the books and the internet available. i guess hat i have to play impudent again tomorrow and that i hope that she will really understand. there is always next time right?

it had been a one hectic day. the lecture and practical lesson are till noon but i had to attend a gathering for those who participate in Asian Medical Student Association (AMSA). i am so prud and happy that my group came as forst runner-up. good job guys. sorry for not contributing much. i have been real lucky lately. get free food from the hamper. =] liking cloud nine.