damsel in distress

it was supposed to be a one fine day. but it rained and the clothes wet. all my efforts withered. how nice it is to get to know things before it happens? but i am going to miss out the excitement and anticipation behind the unexpected outrageous outcomes like a box of chocolates and you'll never know what's inside until you open it.

the girl that i have been stalking for quite some time is doing dentistry in ukm. ok. i guess that i will stop my unusually weird behavior and stop stalking people around. it is so unhealthy that i might be diagnosed as psychologically impaired.

i am still my same old self. trying to adjust. i sometimes like to drift in my own autistic world. it is just so hard to communicate sometimes with people and did feel left out but i just bear with it at times because it is really one of my many handicaps. make friends and stuffs but sometimes i want to be alone. i think i can really afford to go independent and do things on my own because i hate waiting and detest more when people have to wait for me. duh. it is so hard to tell since i have come so far.

when friends come into troubles, it is so going to be the worst case scenario for me to endure. i have to play a part in it in the name of friend. trying to seek words for consolation and encouragement but at the same time i feel helpless at it and reckoning myself as lame. duh. still could show up a happy face while facing those who are in the dire straits. i just want to clarify that i am really no good at communicating. please, spare me.