never told you

it is one solid truth that is unalterable and i only have to accept it with gratefully. i got a B- for my very first end of module exam which is centered on biochemistry thingy. gee. i did expect something bad but B is, well, okay for me. how should i feel? seeing others getting As and B+ and all is really quite an unbearable sight. nonetheless, i could really still breath a sigh of relief because that is really the best that i can give.

i am so going to fight for the better the very next time. i promise to never ever miss a thing and being my old vain self by assuming that everything is so under my control because that is really not going to happen all the time. serious. i am really okay with what i got because i did really not noticing every single details from the note. i was being ignorance and lazy.

jiawen is so right when she said that maybe this could have served as a drive for me for a better, bigger improvement in the next future. gee. i really love my buddy. she cheered me and all but i am really fine. i could still bubbly and happily crapping around and just enjoy my day. i do not ever want to give a damn about others. what is the point of comparison? maybe people just get lucky. maybe people are smart. maybe people are just people. i am what i am and that is enough for me to start a better day with more jubilation and excitement again. and i slept well last night.

going to school in the next 45 minutes. i know that i am being a little emo by blogging this up so early in the morning but i am seriously fine. i just want to express this little tinge of contentment and recapturing whatever is there.