Garden

Today went for Minhui's birthday celebration at The Garden, MidValley. Actually, there have been issues n things going on but I guess I choose to avoid everything because I don't like and I don't want to explain myself so much. I don't want to raise any awkward moments or create more problems to everything that is already happening. So, I don't really know what's going to happen but I am just keeping cool with how everything turns out. Let's just keep it that way. I am very well aware that we can never go back to the past anymore.

I don't feel like apologising or anything but at least just showing appreciation. It's a birthday after all. Some take birth day seriously but I guess it's significant for me in another way.

Anyway, wish I live a different life. Seriously. I wish my life is easier. Sudden thought about it again after hearing conversations of others. I don't always like to be nosy about others business because I know that I have my own to take care off and I don't even know how to deal with everything so why should I get involve with people's things? The weird thing is that even I don't want to know, they will just randomly tell the happening things even if I said no. Awkward.

Gawd. I seriously need to buck up and keep pace already even though a huge part of me is resisting and rejecting everything so aggressively. It just amplifies since I don't know when. I really don't want to continue anymore. I really don't feel like its my true calling.