black star

i am overwhelmingly excited for the coming Avril Lavigne Black Star Concert! i really do. but i am just keeping cool about it as people are asking about it whenever they see me. i would go like 'yeah...it's on 18th feb'. keeping a smile on my face but inside i was like 'gawdddddd. stop asking please. (i regret for posting in facebook. basically, it's like telling the world already') isnt it obvious wth fb n all? gee. feeling a tad of disgust, of myself n perhaps the pretentiously-curious one for just boringly starting a chit-chat session.

the only weird thing about it is that whenever i think of attending it, it just feel blank and lost. i dont know what to expect, what to do, because first and foremost, it would be my first presence on an international artist concert n secondly, it is my all time favourite idol ever! DOUBLE EXCITEMENT!

it's really hard for me to explain how i feel about avril. she has been the one that i listen to (gah not really nowadays but i still love the songs!), the one i look forward to heard from, the updates, her recent news and stuffs. and i have been listening to her for years, since her debut. i have seen her in pictures, videos and to be able to be seeing her live, experiencing the same ambience, breathing in the same air, just standing within her 100 metres perimeter is pretty surreal for me n unfathomable. i cant even explain how i feel so much connected to her since day 1.