beyond it

i always hate orientation week. and now, it's finally over yet i only have one day to rest and i don't feel well. waking up feeling as if i have just been hit by a track. and thinking of going for a camp this tuesday makes me feels even more tired than i already am. i wonder if i could ever survive next week.

orientation week is only fun for the part where everyone works as a team and cheers for our own beloved college, which is the dorm where we are staying. i did scream my lungs out on friday night which it was supposed to be the Perang Dectar, a war between colleges and also an illegal activity but who cares and it is a tradition in UKM. i don't know who is the champion because we left earlier to catch buses and we can't stay too late as the next day we ae heading to KL campus.

i was astounded when i get to the room. it seems very old, shabby and dirty too with inches thick of dust on those furniture. yet, i am quite happy that i get to us WiFi service in my room. yay. then, i could actually see the famous Petronas Twin Tower and KL tower from the five foot way. it was quite a breathtaking sight at night with glittering lights. nonetheless, when i think of walking 20 minutes to the Faculty if i fail to catch a bus, i feel jaded and helpless. will i ever survive in such extreme condition? some more, i am such a loner here. no close friends around and it is pathetic to see how others gather in groups, talking and laughing. nonetheless, i am used to it. it seems like it doesn't matter anymore because i feel like i can do everything by myself.

i am just exhausted.