alter ego

i finally get to know who my buddy is today. buddy system is like an interconnecting line between junior and senior so that both parties can get help from each other especially in studies but more emphasis on assisting junior. it is jiawen. a cool, out-spoken, bold and easy-going girl from terengganu. i did feel like we are somehow connected to each other since the first day we met though i have to admit that we are quite different in the way we carry ourselves. i guess that's how it all started.

she said that since i am somehow a low-profile, quiet and submissive girl, she had planned on putting on a trick on me so that i get to know more people. then, i get comment that i am like a little arrogant and impolite towards seniors as i didn't even greet them in the faculty and that i am somehow irresponsible.

i am quite surprised. wow. they do really notice someone like me. i am so used to not even care about people during my high school since people don't even care about me. so, why should i make the greeting in the first place since most of them are just an acquaintance. it is so stupid when you do the greeting and people just walked pass you as if they give a damn. so, it happens to grow on me. i don't greet unless it's an initiative from others. so, i was labelled arrogant since ages ago or that i do admit i am one. well, for the irresponsible part. hmm. it was a long story but still i tried to make up everything because i think that i do have a solid reasonable excuse for not attending an interview that i was supposed to attend. besides, i can be really talkative. ask my mum for that. i get influence from huiwoon since matriculation. nonetheless, i can go like real quiet because somehow people are talking in alien language and topic that i am not familiar and fond with. it would be odd to just blurt about things that i am not familiar with ain't it? besides, sometimes, it is wise to put 'silence is golden' into good use.

still, i am trying to improve my public relationship with people. i can get really uncomfortable with people but for the future sake, i have to brace myself and act confidence. i am trying hard to be a better communicator in future. i try swallowing those harsh critisms hard and learning on how to polish up everything that is wrong or that is irritable to others. do hope to make a change in myself although it could be fake but God know that i am just trying to be me.

okay. i miss Mummy, Papa, Daddy, Mama, Huidi and everyone else (at) home. it just come across me that i have been making calls everyday, more frequent than the time in matriculation. Mum would be so dead boring without me crapping on my daily basis and whining of my unfortunate encountering to her.