The past few days have been a great turmoil for me. i wasn't sure what the hell get hold of me that kept me distracted and so i did badly in the recent test that i was supposed to be okay with. It meant that the study the previous day and hours and minutes were completely vain. i was so disappointed with myself because i presumed i have confidence in myself but actually, i was merely an ignorant imp.
it took days to recover. Nonetheless, i stil couldn't forgive myself for such a stupid unpardonable mistakes i had made. it was so stuck up in my head. Perhaps, it served as a good reminder for me to strive harder and to be meticulous, and to be cautious and to never make a fool of myself again. It served as a great lesson for me in future, to be humble, to pay attention and most importantly, to get enough study and information. i promise to take this terrible blunder as a stepping stone to be more competent and skillful in presenting my answer.
i just couldn't forgive myself! it fear me that i might let my teacher down and it was a humiliation too. i think that i am sort of overconfident and think too highly of myself/conceited which lead to such disappointment.
it kept me wondering to myself whether i am doing everything right. it seems that everything just falls out of it track and i need strength to complete my journey. Every step is so vital and should be carefully carved now since i am running out of time.
i need assurance, i need confidence, i need humility, i need everything that it takes to great success. i can't bear another mistake due to my own stupidity and carelessness again.
Please, make this post an indelible reminder for me to never take things easily and be more alert and careful enough to apply everything that i know and correctly in presenting my answer.
Dear God, if You can hear me. i need this so badly.
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