God in this moment

If you are waiting in the long line under the scorching hot sun for a warranted once in a lifetime experience to have your one wish granted by the Almighty, do you still wait for it since you've endure so much of miserable turmoils and miseries along the way? You know exactly what the outcomes would be, a successful one, though not exactly like the smooth and happy way you want it to be but you know you're going to nail it anyway, it's just that your path is not as easy and light as the other lucky one who are on the same line. Do you still look ahead for it? you know. just to have that special moment to take in everything and be proud of who you are. Never mind the running dry tears, never mind the backstabbing, never mind the cheating, never mind the sharp words that subtly kill you inside because you're such a sensitive person.

Since you are already have that nod of guaranteed passport to that new world, you just have to climb a few more mountains, swim across a few more ocean, walked across a few more miles of hot burning stony path that hurt your foot so much, dragged yourself across the smelly, soaky swamp areas with fatal predators inside, before you eventually see the new word you're going to live in soon. And suddenly, there's this Good Samaritan, (or He could be a devil), that offer you a one way ride to a parallel world that you've missed, the one you have been thinking about if you didn't queue in the line with other dreamers and fighters for you that one wish to be granted with a few dreading conditions to be fulfilled. Should i go on the ride?

sometimes, before i go to sleep. i always think about all those absurd, magical things that i wish could happen to me. =( the reality is just a boring, tiring world with no creativity whatsoever. not my preferable hues of color to be in.