it's so strange. i think i was starting to feel sad about the whole thing, that i failed in securing a seat in usm. it was bad. bad knowing that people are at least have a secure future while i am still "wandering". it is still a bleak, vague picture. oh. i understand now about why am i so depressed. i just feel left out and uncertain of my future and feeling a slight unfairness knowing others can jump of joy but i have to wait for a few weeks more.
mummy insists on signing me up in private university and i was moved. gasp. i had to control my tears. i am so touched. telling mum that i probably might not taking up medicine if they are to failed me again. not that i lost the passion. it just fades a little. people like me, many others more, keep on getting disappointed by the ignorant People. how do they expect us to contribute whole-heartedly with full gratitude?
plan on getting a car instead of a list of little things but i guess i don't deserve anything now since mum is about to invest something bigger on me. would need to come up with a plan B and C, just in case.
pray hard. bless me.
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