before the break of dawn, Pup woke me and Mum sent me to the temple to do a little offering and get some blessing from the divine before i headed for the interview in the late afternoon. When the Master just finished his recitation of a chant that i was not really familiar with, all i could feel was an inexplainable feeling of calmness and peace. i suddenly felt so grateful and thankful and complete overwhelmed. Of course, i left still feeling blessed and thankful for everything and it is still within me, here and now.
then, i slept off the whole afternoon Pup woke me up again. i was shocked to find that it's almost time. Took some time for preparation and off we left for USM. and then Pup left. for the whole two hours there, i felt like an orphanage. the other candidates were accompanied by their family, willing to wait for them for the whole day and i had nobody there. Not that i care much but i had to left my bag for Weinie's mum because the officers kind of advice those with "big" and "heavy" bag to left it with their family as we are about to endure quite a distance to the tutorial rooms for interview. Well, there was seriously no time to feel shy and embarrass about meeting people, asking for a favour and all so i just braced myself and hand my damn bag to Aunty. Thanks a lot Aunt!
then, it was all about waiting. we are divided into several big groups and lead to the tutorial rooms to be interviewed at different time. The officer lead us along the quiet hallway and it reminds me of Children of Men, i don't know why. i guess it's due to the feeling that we were a bunch of people and we were heading somewhere foreign and we were anticipated of what lied ahead and to me, it would lead to nothing heaven or paradise but a long hour of questioning.
then, it was all waiting again. i started to feel anxious and nervous about the whole thing. Of course, i want to give my best because it's an open opportunity. i can't suppress it anymore as much as i want to. started to pray. it was finally me.
Well, there are two interviewers and surprisingly, only one was doing the questioning. Queer to me. The other, looking more professional and experienced, i presumed that it's because of his thick horn-rimmed glasses made me felt like he's more superior, sat there like a statue and barely even looking at my way, or even listening. i was pretty frustrated with that. Then, all the questions to me were rather general and expected than tricky and challenging. i would say that i am quite satisfy with everything but there were flaws too, of course. i speaked very limited national language and pardon me for that. i don't see it as a problem, it's just a little hard for me to put words together and voicing in on the spot. so, i guess i did badly for the answering in Malay sessions.
overall, i am pretty proud of myself today. able to endure the day without parents around like what the others have (leaving me feel like nobody cares for some time) and i am managed to answer without too much doubts and i can handle. yet, i feel different because it wasn't like how the others experienced. They have more challenging and interesting questions. Maybe, they don't even have the intention to test me so there are no point questioning me further.
oh, and i drove today! oh, it's okay to not secure a place! it's not the end of the world and the are a lot of advantages to study somewhere capital area. i seriously have been doing the thorough thinking.
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