Butterfly Kisses

 i was born to tell you i love you. 

 

 i had made two phone calls today to two special persons of my existence and they've made me what i am today.

 

 Happy Father's Day.

 

 i was listening to Butterfly Kisses on the radio. it made my heart truly sank listening to it on this special day and miles apart from the loved one. The lyrics and lines are so touching that i felt the jittery things crawling down my spines throughout my body again. 

 One of the main reason why i adore the Westerners so much is that they're not introverted as much as us-the Easterners. i long to utter 'i love you' for each conversation but i couldn't surmount the hardship that those three little words bring about.

 No wonder it took me so long to find "i love you" from reading Twilight. i think it appears in the following saga. i know that Edward loves Bella but i want to see the words. i want to see how Stephenie phrase it that made us (the avid reader) went oh oh. No wonder Chuck struggled to express his feelings towards Blair (although he's a man and a westerner and all that). 

 it's not easy, to phrase it. 

 i want to tell my Father and Daddy i love them so much but i couldn't do it as if there's a big lump in my throat that i fear this stupid lump would jump out of my mouth. i hope they know it by heart and my actions that i love them very very much.

 i hope that i could find the courage to do so.