Of losing temper

Coming to clinical years, among the things to prepared for and to solidify is your endurance skill, physical and mentally. I just got my second direct scolding from Doctor straight projected to me. Saliva bursting straight on my face like the sparks from a ferocious amber! I am actually well prepared for everything whether it's atomic bomb, missile attack or tsunami waves! I have seen people shedding tears from the public humiliation and scolding from the doctors before but I guess I am just that kind of person who is hardened inside and stubborn with a tad of arrogant. Most of all, i m tough. Sometimes i just dont give a damn on what people are gonna say about me. Like how a couple of times Mum is judging me on things and accusing me for things. I just get really fed up to even explain myself because sometimes it is really saddenin to know how people can make bad assumption about you. I do have respect for the doctors but I love myself more and I know that she/he is just a doctor, working the asses off at and night saving lives, scarifying themselves which is noble. It is really okay if just on a random moody day, I am so unfortunate that I fall as the victim. It's really okay because I still have a life besides that seconds/minutes of anguish. When they fired the ugly words at me, I would look straight into their eyes, with full concentration, digesting and at the very same time, playing in my mind, a picture of them in a different settings. The Flinestone era, Gaga's music videos, or I could just visualizing them how hideous they are for all those inappropriate yelling. Not to say I'm not at fault but yeah, I admit my wrongs and idiocity but exaggerating is really unnecessary. You are already look old with the stres and workload, and yelling and scolding at us aren't going to make you look good but worsen the situation. God knows how much cells are dead by the time you finish and wrinkles Permanently form. But, I really enjoy the sarcasm! If only it wasn't directedly at me! Teehee. Outstanding senior doctors, have really a great sense of humor aka sarcasism which I thought only seen on screen like the fictional Dr House but apparently, He lives in every doctors! Which is Fun but insane for us medical students to take in. I have seen course mates posted regarding the quotes from their respective department's doctors and that's why I come out with that conclusion. seniority is directly proportionate to sarcasm level! Anyway, I know all the scoldings and yelling are for my own good. Need to reflect on my wrong doings also. And Idiocity. But I really he I can be better and may good luck pour on me. I wish I appear like-able to doctors! Need to and I need help from karma.