ubiquitous

something definitely turns me on today. ever since i came back from classes, i have been waiting for the call by woon. i didn't get to meet her often during the semester break and i know that there's a lot that we should update each other. well, we could have do chatting every time we go online or skype but those can't compete with the anticipation of getting the free call/s on birthday! it has became a tradition. okay. be matured. duh.

then, i rang my mum and i knew i sound so excited on the phone. i cant explain the excitement that i felt. it's just a birth day after all but whatever. i am really happy! but the conversation is basically about what to expect during the clinical year after i had a long hour chatting with my dear buddy. it seems very fun and challenging because it involves more practical works and we finally get to see real patients and run tests on them. nonetheless, there's definitely more stressful because there's a lot to cover from the theory parts. gah. i hate theory exam!

one of my housemate's sister came over for a sojourn today. i am just too envy of their relationship! they are like sisters/twins/best friends/soul mates/whatever there is that paired and happy and complemented each other! i have so much of regrets in my life and i know that i will never ever be able to forgive myself and let it go no matter how hard i try. i have missed out so much about being a confident teenager, being a bubbly sister and most importantly, a happier self. so, this is me, swallowing my regrets, reminiscing all the good old days. and i can never go back to december all the time. i always wonder if they are aware and alert of how depressed i am and how i am terribly haunted by it every ticking seconds i am awake and aware of that missing pieces.