holy shyt. okay. i think i really start to love swearing. no, not really. i dont normally spit it out in public or any conversations but i know that my subconcious love that to bit. it's just not my culture but profanity is pretty much mainstream nowadays. it's like IT's the the only right thing to say at the right time, right situation, right occasion. and yes, in social media i can freely type as i wish and literally speak my mind. so yeah. holy shyt...i havent blog for 4 freaking months.
it's either my life has been really 'good', boringly routine, or my creative writing cells have succumbed to necrosis. or i am just on my energy saving mode. but, i am back again today and 4 months have definitely been a long journey. digging thru the past-4-months file in my rusty mind, i know that there were certain things worth blogging about. take for example, 1. how i deal with my final exam 2. bangkok trip 3. people generally
i should really bare in mind to blog more frequent not to leave it to isolation because i really love writing. and frankly, i am now really inspired with my recent reading. i am on semester break and there's plenty of time so ive decided to indulge in reading. i have been intrigued with one of the most talk-about topics since i couldn't really remember when but on my recent visit to the bookstore, surprisingly saw it on the best seller shelves. did they even allow it in boleh-land? and a few days after, i know instantly that i have to really get myself in the circle of the most hyped thing in town right now after the ridiculous success of Twilight Trilogy then The Hunger Games Trilogy. it's really a guilty pleasure for me and the series are deemed a taboo, so after one and a half way thru it, i am pretty much a Fifty Shades of fucked up myself.
the academics and scientists and whatsoever professors always reckon Fiction as a waste of time. they are more dwell in their non-fiction lengthy facts and philosophy publication. i have never picked a book from the self-management, economics, or any other self-help kit section that most readers find to have found a new insight to it. and apparently, great new knowledge. exception to The Secret and Men Are From Mars and Women Are From Venus and the Tuesday with Morris thing. i itch to read them, maybe someday if i get free sample.
so, what i am trying to depict is that i rather read some fantasy, creative imagination and intriguingly beautiful writing than reading something that would take up more than half of my learning ability to rationalize and arguing with the points in the non-fiction books. i am not intelligent or patience. i rather have myself sinking, and giggling into the non-existence world.
but, i think it's not the high time yet to spill my thoughts on my recent readings. i havent finish the trilogy yet. i know that i can finish it in days but trust me, u have to take a break in between or else i am really going to suffocate to death from the too exaggerated excitement. my mind was running wild. really wild. furthermore, i dont want the reading to end so fast. i couldnt bear to think about ending it say by this month then i would left hanging in my imagination. but in between resting time, i decided to revitalize this abandon blog and brushing up my writing skills albeit finding myself struggling hard finding the right verbs, adjectives and whatnot. i should have start reading at younger age. like read just anything, everything but not to be picky. there's an entire Classical collections that i want to get my head in so much so that i am in that 'circle' of bookclub but no. the language and writings are too much for me to digest. on the sidenote, i havent find the right inspiration and cause to do so, so no, not now.
one negative thing about reading Fictions is probably you find yourself hard to cope with reality. like you want to be the character in the books so much. you want to meet those characters. the characters who are way too cool, and unbelievably awesome. everything in the books is perfect. but when you have to pull away from that cloud of graphic and coaxing your soul back to planet Earth, it instantly eats u from inside out. still, the best thing afterwards is hoping. and keep on dreaming. and never forget to fight for it. and one day i wish i can say to myself that my wish/dream comes true. :)
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