Conversation I don't want to miss

There was once a conversation that went like this,
Mum: have u ever really thought of what u want to be in the future? U have decided aren't u?
Me : no. Not really. I used to want to be a doctor but it doesn't fit anymore. I can't bare to see the pain. The empathy is killing me inside.
Mum: huh?
Me : all I know now is I want to earn a lot of money. Which profession earn the most? Any idea? U know, I notice that some people were born really rich. Have u seen the Hollywood people? Or those in the Ciral, they lived in mansion, have fancy sport cars, wear branded stuffs. How the hell did they have that much money? And I am thinking of doing business. Like daddy n Momma.
Mum: larrrr. Business can't guarantee a great success. There are risks to take. Furthermore, it's not easy to establish one. Being a doctor is more stable. U have a guaranteed job and u can help theele in needs. When else r u going to find tme doing goods? Isn't it like killing two birds with one stone.
Me: yeah mum. I know. It's a noble job but it freaks me out a little for the past few days at the hospital exposure programme.
Mum: it's okay. U have to think optimistically. Think of he pain as a mean to alleviate their further agony! It's not like the doctor cutting off the dead tissue is going to kill her, it's for her good. For better healing. U will be fine if u think that way. It's not even harming her.
Me: hmmmm. Okay. But doctors have fixed income. Unless u work in private institutions or u have a phd and u r a famous well known world recognized surgeon then I bet I can make bizillion. Yet, I don't think I will be able to do that. I haven't really thought that far. Let alone I haven't even get to enroll in med school.
Mum: well. It's not about money at all dear. The money can't buy u karma or anything.
Me: but mum, isn't it nice to have uncountable money? U can spend on whatever things that u like without having to think thrice. See how those people in the tv or magazines! They are like super rich weh. I still think business is good. Or actuarial science. I don't know.furthermore, when u have the rolling of money every single second, u can use it to help those who needs it. When u r the boss, u can have free time, go to see the world, the children in poor countries and lend them a helping hand. Isn't that the same?
Mum: I still think medicine is the best. For a girl. Business is like more on boys thing. U'll never know what will happen. What if u have no employment and all those. And nobody in the family knows anything bout business.
Me: okay. I will reconsider it.

This happened ages ago. And recently, it keeps on lingering in my mind. The past keeps haunting me and no matter how far I try to distract myself with other things, it keeps on coming back. Now that I am inscribing it down over here. I suppose I am going to remember it for a while. For life maybe, for it is one of the most life-changing conversation I ever had. And it's still lingering and buzzering in my head all the time. Whenever I'm feeling a little bit depressed and upset doing what I would be doing because I always reflect back to a second choice that I am not supposed to be thinking at this stage. Even though I promised myself to keep the positive energy, I couldn't restrict myself from throwing my congested mind into something I thought would be magical and truly 'life changing' if I just act now.

Is this always been my dream? So near yet so far.