The secret

It's the beginning of third week. I have seen a lot for the past two weeks which also marks the very beginning of my lifelong hospital life, of course unless I choose to not practice medicine after graduation. However, if the one month basic clinical introductory orientation like thing is taken into account on my embarkment of this nobel with a tad of ugliness profession, I have been here for one and a half month which felt like eternity because weekdays drag on too long and the hospital life is exhausting like a eight hour straight pushup and eight hour more swimming and followed by another 8 hours of heavy weight lifting. Is this the so called stressful life I have been enduring and lead to my irregular menses ? Could be. It still bothers me so much as it feels like I am not a lady with a vagina and properly functioning ovaries but why gives me breasts and girl-like feature in which I couldn't even have the once a month girl thing. Haha. Seriously. Asking for it cause I don't want to get any side effects from it especially the weight gain issue. I try to live my life as positive as possible! Starting my day with positive thoughts and having it chanting inside my mind. It's like the law of attraction. I am working on it when I stumbled across a video the other day on The Secret. It claims that some people are successful because of that secret. And it is none other than having a positive thinking and mindset. It works like magnet. You have to want and only think about positive and good things such as : I am going to have a great day at school/work. Instead of 'Please don't make my life miserable at work and school today.' it's like phrasing a positively correct sentence that makes the big difference. I am going to pass my exam instead of don't let me fail my exam! Some even said that you can write in on paper on daily basis and may the attraction of the universe does the work. It's really interesting because I was connecting it to religion practice. People pray to their respective God and 'asked' for things. Many times, we see how Grateful they are when God granted their wishes and answered their prayers. So is that how The Secret works? Or those believe in The Secret are atheist instead and only believe in their own self and their own mind as mind over matters! Basically trying to live everyday life by abiding to the secret too. I need to attract good things and emit positive energy and vibe! my doctors are going to have favor on me and therest of the team of course. I am going to pass my exam. I am going to go thru my hospital life happily! I am going to be fine! I am going to be energetic tomorrow! God bless.