Dear F

now, F. you do the blogging.

let's build an imaginary house mansion with rooms to occupy our memories. like magical.

i enjoyed myself very much today. catching up with each others. life is always unexpected. and i sincerely, genuinely wish you the very best in your future undertakings. it could be that this has always been your calling. whatever you do, make the best out of yourself. to be successful, there's a lot of turmoils that you have to live through and brace it. and you're never alone. i hope that you are willing to share with me your problems and if you need any opinions, feel free to ask. i want to help. i am always available. for me, i have learnt to talk about my problems as a mean to release my stress and to seek for some sense of security and belonging. and i always have faith in people i am in contact with because i believe in them. trying to earn the trust of others by believing in them.

i tend to see myself as an arrogant, social outcast and a total nerd in the past. we have been classmates since primary school and trust me, i am not even this close to F until secondary school. well, at least, there are fond memories in primary school. i used to walk across the street from the school to her house and make calls for a couple of times. maybe you forgot it F. but i am sure that it happened. moreover, you're special in the sense that my father knows who you are. One of the many friends that my father, who actually know. we acknowledged you as 'ah tao'. i have forgotten how he happens to pay more attention to you but i think he used to see us together back then.

so. now. i have learn a new way to really treasure the connection, the bond and valuable friendship that i have with the people that i care for. let's put it in a way that i tend to choose who to befriend and who to not for particular reasons that i don't seem to understand. it could be fate. it's could be the sense of belonging. it could be the chemistry that we have. and yes F. we share the 'mischievous' gene! and we are similar in many ways. you do have a special place in my heart.

well. you make me think a lot lately. you teach me a lot even before. first, you make 'life seems unexpected'. second, you make me feel guilty and ponder about the many unpredictable possibilities that i might step on and the many diversions that i could choose, if i want. thirdly, you make me feel like i am useless. if only i have the power and authority.

it's tough. life's hard. have a little faith. we shall have a bright future. we share dreams. let's make it comes true. i am talking about traveling and holidays.

want to know that my friends are happy everyday because nothing's permanent. the sadness and sorrow wont last long. just don't let it burdens you much. pray for the best.