Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. i think the Muslims celebrated the New Year the most joyfully and meaningfully because it signifies the end of their fasting period. The can enjoy having all the good food and drink whenever they want and don't have to endure all those challenging moments in which faith is the only thing that keeps them sane and alive.

So, i'm celebrating Hari Raya too this year, in addition to welcome the coming Mooncake Festival as Huidi's request.

i am so kiddo. i like that, i like being a kid. i'm just a kid.

i'm never fond of children because i think i freaked them off. Whenever i see toddlers or babies, my mind was picturing the scene of people posing their cute faces and acted like a kid trying to attract the attention of that particular toddler, trying to play around because that particular toddler is so darn cute. i tried too because they are just so cute. I just want to see whether they'll be fond of me too yet i failed miserably every single time. They'll just give me a numb look, a serious and stern look, trying to tell me i'm a loser or something. Ok. Fine. i leave them alone. Sometimes, they can like laugh out loud for something ****** that i couldn't even understand. i'll look around, trying to search for the source of their laughters but couldn't find any, well even if i did, i didn't find it funny as what they think it is. Children, they're simple but i complicated them so i find it difficult.

i was playing with them in the evening with the lanterns and candles and (OMG!) balloons. So, i joined the Girls' team. They're like children from around 7-12. i am going 18 this coming October still i managed to squeeze myself into their innocent and childish world. The girls were Jinrou, Yongjie, Jiajia, Huidi and of course ME! The boys were Vincent, A Cheng, A Chang, Jiayun and Daniel. Yeah, say 'Hello' to kiddo 'Che'. i totally put myself into their world, screaming around, playing hard, trying to win all the super childish and fun games (childish comes with fun and more laughters). At the end of the day, it's a tie because nobody wants to lose. Typical children.

i was so scared of balloons. I was so scared of playing with the balloons, especially the bursting part. The burst was like so annoying and it scared the hell out of you as if your soul lost a piece of its part. i kept on telling them 'i'm scared, i'm so scared, can i withdraw from this game?'

Everyone was like so supporting. i so want to cry and i'm so touched. They kept on encouraging me, telling me i can do it, there's nothing to scare about, it's fun and stuffs. I LOVE YOU GUYS! So, i braced myself on the second round. i blew the fancy balloon and just sat on it with my fat ass and then it burst ; 'Booooooom!'. Hooray! i made it! i conquered my fear. The whole session was filled with so much of laughters and noises and screams and fun and i just laugh out loud. i think i've never laugh so hard before in my lifetime, maybe for just a couple of time before, that's why i'm inscribing this one down. i laughed till i feel like pee-ing, till i felt like the urine is so coming out and then i couldn't stand still and my stomach was aching playing with all these kids because they're just so fun to be with. i belong to the kids. My happiest moment was with the kids around.

Thank you so much kiddoes. i owed you guys a lot today because you guys just made my day and you guys made me laugh a lot today and i like to laugh like i'm the happiest person in this universe.

So, me and the kids. We are so much alike. i never want to grow old. i want to live like children forever that i could. Maybe i'll grow physically so just one thing i want to retain, the children's beautiful, innocent and pure soul. Nonetheless, i still think that raising a child needs a lot of efforts and i doubted that i will make a great mother should i be granted a child as graceful and beautiful as they are. Duh. i'll never have one because apparently i'm not getting married and not planning on it unless i really find my true soulmate.

Pup said that he thought it was fun looking at me playing with the kids.

Hell yeah. i'm just a kid. Freeing my soul...to the wonderland.