It gave me an opportunity to befriend a few of the college mates who shared the same passion as i am; We miss home like hell!
Mimah asked me a profound question and i was completely struck dumb by it and left agape for quite some time before i could twist my mind and come up with an idea because i'd have look dumb and ignorant to shrug off my shoulders and said i don't know.
What's my faith?
Dang.
Well, i believe in karma. i treat people the way i want people to treat me back. i do good deeds because i feel terribly bad to commit crimes and sins. i improve myself every single day and constantly reflect within, that's the way to live life and make life alive. i seek for eternal happiness and as i peek in my future, i have a celestial dream of my future yet never fail to remember where or when or why or how i begin and what i begin with.
That's my solid answer actually. The beginning. It has always been my main driving force and imperishable dynamic to success.
Remember the infamous quote by the whoever that's to be careful/beware of what you wish for.
i was beyond full and bloated for every meal that i have taken since yesterday. Grateful for what i have and what i was granted to be able to enjoy the juicy and scrumptious meals while millions more are starving. i'm sorry for being so apathetic of those issues and done nothing. The least i could do is probably to never ever waste. Life does not centre around me alone, we share, we care but i'm not playing my role on that. Often, we read on news or watch on televisions of those unfortunates and we go like we're so darn lucky, we're so darn fortunate, we're suppose to be grateful and then we sympathize. We may go for donations but no matter how much donations we make, it never cease away the problems. it may help for the minority but the majority? what about them? i'm just a nobody to comment or do something conspicuous and big that could really equalized the unfairness. it does make me feel terrible sometimes but i'm too selfish to wish for a switch. Let's talk karma again. Did they make things that are super unpardonable in the previous life and thus have to gone through the suffering now as a punishment? Maybe they could be reincarnated as animals but sometimes i think some animals have better life than the human before the slaughtering part but if everyone in this universe is a vegetarian, what would have happen to the food chain? is it true that their presence is to make us feel better of our own life and fortune and at the same time feel bad too occasionally? i know i have some unexplainable and incurable mental problems that sometimes i don't feel like i deserve things even though i work hard for it and ask for it from my almighty parents. i am greedy, materialistic and the list goes on.
Thank you God for the meal tonight. And the day before and the previous and everything, good or bad since the moment i was born. THANK YOU.
No comments:
Post a Comment