It was Friday

It was a three days weekend. i like weekend! it signifies more sleeping hours.

So, i had been planning on watching The Lightning Thief. Whatever the hell it is going to be, it should be Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief. Then, my wish wasn't granted. There wasn't an afternoon show and i sort of made through my mind that i would just have to pick out the second favourite, The 72 Tenants or somethings. As luck would never have it, it was a full house. So, we went for Book of Eli because it was the latest and from the sypnosis i read from the paper, i was so curious of what is the content of the book that claimed to be so powerful.

The reviews were right. The story could be quite damn boring and super slow moving at the beginning yet i was quite zealous because i haven't been for movie since forever. i was paying full concentration and trying to figure out what it would be. i thought Eli had a list of people to kill, to get power to rule the new era or something, like a death note but it was stacked up in a book.

Then, when when Sohala was doing the prayer/asking her mother to hold their hands together and sort, like what she's beeen taught by Eli, i felt like being hit by a big book and knew instantly THE BOOK WAS A HOLY BIBLE. Ouch. How stupid was i. Why didn't i figure it out before? It was supposed to be expected but not expected. The promotion poster didn't highlight any of the Divine. i couldn't believe that i didn't figure that out before.

Well. i would say that it was a quite meaningful movie. it was quite hilarious too and it keeps me thinking again.

Oh. And it was a Friday. Mummy said that it was a high date to ring Pup because fridays are his days. Father always goes for Bird Singing Competition on the weekend and it's his full time hobbies. After school, get back, feed the birds, bath the birds, watch the birds, sing to the birds, talk to them. Sometimes, i feel like he cares more of his birds than me. So, i was like asking about the results today and Pup got quite a big win. Needless to say, Uncle is the biggest winner He has like hundreds of birds in his house and it was such a modest aviary and i don't really fancy visit there because it was smelly. Then, what shock me was that Pup went to gamble. i was like shouting and grinning at the same time. The last time i remembered he saying that he has quit gambling since a long time ago because it was such a painful addiction. I asked of what situation he was in and sadly he was losing. Previously was enjoying quite a big win but what goes around comes around. So, i called it off and wish him luck. i hope that Pup will win today's Lucky Draw at the Bird Singing Competition and tomorrow's too. It was a cow! This should be fun.

In the late evening, i texted Pup and i was so glad that he won quite a handsome money. Gambling is exciting! i believe that a person's luck play a vital role.

It was a memorable day after all! Me gusta!

Ramble

# i am supposed to go and watch Percy Jackson and The Olympians : The Lightning Thief tomorrow. But there's no afternoon session. there is but it will be in the late afternoon and evening and night playing which is a nono because i have to catch the bus.

# my relationships with my fellow roomies are better now. How hypocrite i am and i hate myself for that!

# It's another long weekend! i'm loving it though it will bore me to death if i didn't find some entertainment.

# i wish my family come for a visit. There's a mid term holiday for the public schools in March. So, i was like complaining to my Mother of how pathetic i am for i was left in a state of deprivation of food(snacks) and figuring Oh maybe she'll come by and send me some yet it turned out that Aunty's dropping by this Sunday. Sigh.

# i miss Huidi, Mummy and Pup!

Just thinking

it's a hopeless Saturday. i'm finally back to college after a hell lot of tremendous hours of journey though i slept quite well in the bus.

So, the whole thing kept me wondering what does it take to be a doctor? To be an adequate, good doctor is another issue. What does it take to truly get the title?

People are kind of aware that i am to become a doctor, in the near future, if that's in God's will. Oh hey, am i? How come the news spread like wildfire, it wasn't even a solid truth. So, i kept on getting numerous critics, advices, stories of what have became to the current batch of newly graduated students, doing their pracical or housemenship in the government hospitals and how they turn the seniors insanely livid. Enough said.

Enduring medical school is a must. Complete a five years studies, get a degree and off they went for two years housemenship. Well, it brings a different story there. Attitude, confidence, application, agility and all are put to test. Everything is not black and white anymore and there are valuable lives involve and it is vital that they make full use of their knowledge and prove their ability to everyone before they deserve the damn coveted title. Just so to make the name good to enunciate.

i wasn't even sure anymore which and which is the genuine advice, comment, compliment, encouragement. i wasn't quite a someone who blindly receive beautiful words and indulge in my own merriment to know how much people actually care and adore and being supportive. Sometimes, i could feel somewhere in the abyss of the chasm that there's something fishy there. Arrogant and impudent ain't i? Whatever. Everything kept inside me needs to be expressed because i don't know how long i can stand still. i need confident, i need to have confidencce in myself not to get blessing and confidence from others. i need to work hard towards it so as to prove that i am capable to do so on my own and to prove to the presumably hypocrites that i have achieved something and i am proud of myself, my family and it doesn't have to concern them.

So, what was i doing here? Whining endlessly. Completely moodless to do my studies and i am fairly sure that i am quite far behind due to a couple days of skipping classes.

Still. i want to be a doctor because by studying medicine, i will know more of human, of myself, of how the body works, of how vulnerable we are, of how omnipotent the God is, of how i can help the others to alleviate their sorrow, to do what i am interested in. Great. Hopefully i can endure whatever that comes. Please give me back my strength.

p/s i need to learn to live as i don't give a damn of others' pointless and stagnating thoughts.

A snapshot of eternality

this one is so darn meaningful! When i'm down or happy or whatever it is, i should really take a look at this one because something funny was going on! this should be indelible.

Haven't update for donkey's years.

A lot of things have actually happened and i knew that i should have inscribed every single detail of it but ....eeks....i didn't even try hard enough to get to online to post something about it and even when i get to online...eeks....i didn't even tempt to sign in here because i sort of reckoned i have other important things to do instead of eternalise a piece of history here.

#1 this is so going to be my last time travel back from college to home because i'm graduating in like 2 months.

#2 JUSTIN BIEBER is so darn cute and i first thought of the voice as a girl but it turns out to be a boy. Figure. He was still young and probably haven't complete his secondary sex characteristics.

#3 Lunar New Year aka Chinese New Year had been fun. i had fun eating that i knew that i've gained so much in days. Meeting up with long lost family, relatives........no friends because i was like so darn lazy to go out or let just put it.....no transports...meaning nobody to fetch me to and fro. Oh yeah. i got a driving license ain't i?

#4 i am cramming of figuring out what to offer to my fellow roomates. The respectable Authenticate is kind of annoying.

#5 When you genuinely, truthfully like/adore/love someone, no matter whatever is thrown on them (critics, rumours), you just can't help falling for them. Avril's Alice was being criticized and her breakups and all that were befalling her doesn't suppress a tiny bit of my adoration to her. Avril's part of my life!

#6 i read PerezHilton.com.

#7 Enjoy camwhoring. Only with my Didi!

#8 Going back in hours. Shit.

#9 Love my family!

#10 ALICE IN WONDERLAND! i want all of the soundtracks!

Sour Grape

So, today i got my results for my second Mid-Semester Test.

Got a C for English which left me speechless. We were doing summary for English and i guess that i don't like to summarize much or let's put it i don't like things that are to be summarised because when you summarised, you left out so much of things though those are not of the important note but eventually they matter. It is like a novel. So much details that sometimes i feel like throwing up before the writer eventually get into the point but they did matter, one way or another.

Haha. Clear case of sour grapes.

Yay. A few more days to go back home for CNY. Haven't finish my homework, haven't prepare for quizzes. And i am still here online by renting broadband, again!

OMG! i just found a FULL version of Alice, which is like way way way way so much more better than the previous radio edit version. So Would love to take back my words. The song is awesome!

Need to hit the cinema for Dear John! Shit.

Maxis broadband way to go

Muahaha. finally i am able to online by using Maxis Broadband by paying RM1. The connectivity is like so darn fast, streaming videos within seconds and i'm totally loving it!

Maybe i should subscribe one too and start making business like she does. i was doing the Math just now and i figured se should have earn 500 over in a month.

And now, i'm grinning, from ear to ear becuse i am so darn happy that i get to download Alice, posting new blog, doing internet browsing and i have a new hobbies now here. During the coming weekends, i would definitely make my early booking for a couple hours more.

Oh. Though the (Done with downloading) chorus is not catchy the first time i listened, after a few times, it has become a familiar tune and i love the intro.

tripping down, spinning around.....

whee....in wonderland.

Aftermath

i feel like this is not my life at all. Did i really have sucessfully gone through months of torment here? i didn't even remember i did have a history here, i have a life to make here. Well, kudos to me, i survive and come back again, vaguely.

i have spent enormous hours and energy copying homeworks without truly getting a way of comprehending the solutions or rather do everything on my own. This is not me. why am i here again? Where are my lost time?

My break is still living inside me. It seems as if i have been home all along, doing the same thing for what seems like forever yet never get bored of it. It is so darn awesome. Sleep, eat, doing internet browsing, see the world, bla and bla and bla. But, that wasn't life but as a part of it, it is. Life is supposed to be about laughing out loud, doing things that i want to do, dare myself, see the world, get happy, get new knowledge and so much more. before i get to those, i guess that i better work my asses off to earn enough money to spend it as my own will. Married a bizillionaire would be a great resort too, though. Whee. Slipping into my own reverie.

And yet, here i am, rambling nonsense. This is it. This is the moment. Unbearable. Bitter. Take it or leave it. The break is over and i would like to suggest myself that doing the Chinese New Year countdown is more practical.

Still, have been spending precious time daydreaming. i could stare at the board and drifted away into my Homey-land. Oh, i was sleeping. Nice. Oh, House, Gossip Girl, Chuck Bass. Marvellous. Oh, Mum's cooking. Hmm. Mummylicious.

Then, i would walk through the corridor, looking around, studying the floor, counting, figuring, daydreaming. How could i stand? Months before my final and i better start on my engine to put my bestest foot ever forward.

It's now or never.

26th january 2010 , 0022

Excerpt from roomie :

The yesterday, i overheard a conversation of my roomies. i swear that i wasn't even eavedropping. they talked, so i heard. i am pretty much interested in their lives because they tend to live up to a point in which sometime i find it hard for me to perceive. As time passed, as i mingled, as i learned, it occurred to me that almost every single living being is the same. i am muchof a repulsive kind that i don't really like to mingle around a large crowd and that is a solid reason why i am not socially active. Better off say that i am not good with people, i am not welcome and i have just a small circle of friends and am totally happy about that because everyone means so much to me that way.

So, A was telling B that her friend, i suppose it was a boy, who went out on a date with her, telling her to concentrate on studies, telling her that a romance relationship between the opposite sexes is fun yet bitter at the end. they were still young and so and so and there are still many great chances out there, wailing. Then, she came to a point which made me glittered. Her friend told her that he had gone through those experiences and so and so and so and that she better works her asses off for the bigger future and that life, begins at 30. 30.

It keeps me pondering, counting. He was right. He was wise. Caring or perhaps jealousy i don't know. A was, well, stubborn and still wandering around in her oh-so-romantic world i reckoned. She said that she couldn't stand his lectures. Enough said. i guess she was just happy on his company.

At 30, i am probably already have my own career then. When i get to earn my own money, i want to spend on truly enjoying life at its best. i really like Katy Perry now. She was someone i am inspired to be, i mean her undying, lively bubbly spirits. She enjoys life to its fullest, does crazy things, never faltered, nothing that hinder her from achieving her dreams, see the world and stuff and stuff and stuff.

And her comment on boys that she would fall for is so me i guess.

It has to be someone with knowledge, someone who can teach me new things, someone who is “omnipotent” as in what i perceive he is, someone who can make me laugh like there's no tomorrow, someone who is well, just great. The most important is that we will not grow old. No. Someone that i want to and i can grow old with. it will never feel awkward, it will never cease, there will never be a boring moment, even there is, it was a fun boring moment and because we would have a lifetime together so we have to have that chemistry and the bond and the wit.

i figured that sometime, it was something like peer pressure that people indulge in those romance-knit-knot relationship. i can't comprehend why have to boost around just because ones has a boyfriend who cares so damn much about her. i couldn't comprehend why it need to be tell the world. Just so to create jealousy? Just so to show off? Just so to feel superior? Maybe the feeling was right. i'd like to make myself believe that everything is destined, one way or another. i'd like to make myself believe that i wasn't alone too. And i'd like to make myself believe that i should not detest people who are like going around mingling, flirting, and so on that are not among the things i will not do and not that i will approve off but people are just getting old, mature and i guess people are sexually attracted to each other and it is a totally natural thing to do because everyone wants to be love. But, me way, even if i like someone, i would have just keep it a secret because i would love to see whether it was a mutual feeling or not. And i am not taking my moves.

When i like someone, i end up pretty much completely smitten.

And theni move on.

26th January 2010

it disgusts me because i feel that she's trying to hard. vice versa.

it disgust me that i think she's trying to show her asses off. vice versa.

it disgusts me that i disgusted people.

it disgusts me that i, disgust people.

Oh, the room of these 4 walls, full with hidden bitterness. it is me. it is always me.

Oh, the room of these 4 wals, full with invincible hypocricy. it is me. it is always me.

Oh, the room of these 4 walls, when and where should i dig a hole for me to breathe in new air?

Oh, the room of these 4 walls, i am better off escape alone anyway.

it wasn't bias, it's the attitude actually that make us different. Attitude.

30th january 2010 0040

One sickening weekend had finally passed. Went for badminton, cramping in the room, sickening over another weekend before packing home again and basically i got nothing more to do so i slept, watched GossipGirl, and it was hell of a hot weekend. Seriously hot.

So, i stumbled acroos Avril's new released song, 'Alice' which will also be featuring in Tim Burton “Alice in the Wonderland” film, which is so going to be huge i reckoned and it is definitely a must watch. Coming out in mid February i guess.

Then, last night, i culdn't sleep well. Damn. i kept on thinking of the tune. How was it supposed to sound? From reviews, i am sure that it was disappoiting instead it was so darn great, awesome. i couldn't stand still. i need to get to hear the tune of it, a beat of it and it will definitely make my day and i would definitely be playing it over and over on my playlist. Shit. Being incarcerated here, i was wondering whether i am aware if ever Third World War is happening somewhere around the world. i feel so shallow, so ignorant, so sickening here.

Oh dear Alice. How are you suppose to sound?

1st February 2010 2345

A couple of hours ago, i, had finally get to listen to the first beat of Alice. i was so excited and all. It was so darn nice but in my opinion, it wasn't really catchy but as a whole, it was great.

So need to go for download. i can't wait for Avril's 4th album! i can't wait for Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland! And i have to stop myself from doing mobile internet.

These few days, i had been in a super good mood. i am happy, for no particular reason. Well, there is, let's keep it secret. it was such a small matter but it means huge to me. i can't believe how a short note could really made my day and made me go oh-oh and made me just so happy. sometimes, i just had to make the first and right move.

Excited for the coming Chinese New Year. taking my own one week leave from college, skipping two and a half days classes and it is a guilty pleasure. Get to have family gathering, get to indulge in scrumptious food, get to watch teleision programmes, get to eat again, get to sleep, get to just take a break from my horrendous college life.

5th February 2010 0012