you dont miss

i really dont know where do i start. my mind is a mess now because i have too much time to spend and i dont know how to use them wisely. please dont ask me to go and do my study and revision for exam because that is the wisest thing to do at such critical point of my life. i am taking professional exams the very next year.

i am still a very lost soul.

all i know now since i have the time in the world is i would love to improvise myself. having said that means i needa get my revision starts now basically because i know that i dont know a lot. i want to fill up my time doing things that i love and can actually learn and grow from making a better person. i just want to be a better me.

i have this saying that lingers in my mind too long i couldnt get rid of it. "if you dont know, you dont miss". quoted by the smart, eloquent Turkish tourguide that i met during my last visit to Turkey. he was explaining about the new generations that grows in par with the advancement of technology and cybernet that this generation demands and yearns for  a change in their lives. you see, turkey is a really beautiful country and it has long history because of its strategically located geography. within Turkey itself is divided into the europe and asian part. and there's central anatolia, the part with a more conservative Turkish. so the young generations, they kind of dont want to live in such environment anymore because the see a lot of what the outside world could serve and provide for them. a transition and reformation, idk. the main point is, when you know more, when you see more of the outside world, you want more. 

and I KNOW AND I WANT.

you can be anything but not ungrateful. i am a total sucker for such inspiring quote like this and stay true to it if possible.

i am grateful but i know that i want more. there's a lot that i want with my life and there's a lot that i wish for a change but i know that at the end of the day, life goes on. i just have to move on adn go with the flow. so im just going to do whatever i can now to finish what i start and along the way i hoope that i can pick up new skill and passion and interest. :)