We often fail because we try for something bigger than ourselves ; and that is what we should be doing.

Thoughts?

Dope

Dear omnipresent Force, please make my coming days easier n bearable n lessen the excrutiating pain that I am experiencing.

The most awful feeling is when you want to cry hard so much but the headache knowing it won't solve anything. Just creating more problems.

That awkward moment when ur friends were in debt of u n it dragged so long that u don't even know how to ask from them. It wasn't much but in a bunch of random friends, it make no easy task. Gawwwwwwd. I don't want to pay in advance for anything anymore. It's really a pain in the ass. that feeling scrolling down ur 555 notebook looking at the "long list named" on the left thinking how am I going to talk to these people n the left column which shown the digits. When u do the additional at the bottom, u realised that u could do a lot of things with it. it stays with u!

alter ego

that exasperating moment when you have no one to talk to and you called your grandmother.

ive been feeling extremely sorry and sympathy for myself for all the troubles and suffering i have made myself go thru. worse, i cant talk about it to anybody not even the one who are closest to me. why? they never listen. they dont understand how much pain n hurt it is. second, i dont want to worry them. third, they never take away the pain. they never get me a solution for it.

so many times, i look and think about this pathetic me and i feel so much hatred and i almost burst to tears. i am enjoying life and hating it at the same moment. why? because i am spending my parents' money n they have been giving me good life but i disappoint them. i just waste the money and energy.

welcome to my life

do u ever feel like breaking down

do u ever feel out of place

like somehow u just dont belong

n no one understands u

do u ever wanna run away

do u lock urself in ur room

with the radio on turns up so loud

but no one hears ur screaming

no u dont know what its like

when nothing feels alright

u dont know what it's like to be like me

to be hurt

to feel lost

to be left out in the dark

to be kick

when u'r down

to feel like u've been pusheed around

to be on the edge of breaking down

and no one's there to save u

no u dont know what it's like

welcome to my life

no one ever lies staright to ur face

no one ever stab u in the back

u might think i'm happy but i'm not gonna be okay

everybody always getting what u wanted

never have to work it was always there

u dont know what it's like

to be like me

i miss Simple Plan, Blink 182, the click five, my chemical romance and some other old bands n old stuffs n old awesome songs that i used to listen to when i was in high school. gawd. everything's gone n i dont even know where to start. :)