Where rainbow ends

it's been the freaking 19th day here. i don't know how i manage to endure every single day but one thing for sure, i'm still alive!

Life has been hectic and my passion seems to fade away in silence with each passing seconds, minutes, hours and days. i am very sure of my priority, to study hard and do medicine because it seems like it's the only thing i'm interested in since ... i couldn't remember. it's like a silence killer. i hope that it wouldn't be a irreversible process for i'm tired of figuring out what i want to do for the next 40 years. 

Room mates have been really helpful. i like it when we are laughing out loud for certain silly things but that's not the main point. it's the process and the people i'm with. they are all decent people so i do learn a lot from them. we live in harmony! i keep on getting remarks from the authorities to mix well with the room mates (different race, religion, and culture). Oh well. Well done to me. we love each other and care about each other and the more i'm with them, the more i feel like a need to help and care for them. i remember last time we spent the whole night crapping about every single thing and laughed our lungs out and totally deserted our studies. How queer ain't it? i spent more time talking to people i've just known for days than the fellow "acquaintances" that i've known for years. 

That's all for now i guess although there's still a lot to mention here. i've been keeping my feeling and track for days without pouring it out to words or type it down so that in the later years i could have a good reflection of my college life although i'm pretty sure it would be a haze till then. Just feel like a need to blog it.

There's still a zillion thing to complete and i know it very well that there's no way i could get every single thing done even for an infinite time. i wish that things could stop progressing and give me a break, a little escape, i'm so tired of being what i'm now.