life has been filled with ups and downs. it's like a roller coaster ride. sometimes, you get on top. sometimes, you get back on the ground. it makes you feel like you can spread your wings and fly but later, i find it surreal and things get back to solid ground again that i wish upon the stars every night that life could be much more easier for me.
again, i have to remind myself everyday that this is the road i have taken. the thing is that i have to work like a lot harder to make it a success. i really really do wish that i have a different life. thought that as long as the interest is there, nothing could bring me down but apparently i am so deadly wrong. i dont even know if the interest and passion is still burning inside or everything has subsided little by little through the course of time until i have to doubt myself whether it's still there. the little voice inside me always has the answer yet it's kind of impossible to make a diversion from here. now.
i always have stupid, preposterous thoughts running in my mind whenever the exam is near. truth is i really fear it because i couldn't find a way to conquer it although i reckoned that i did before. i wish it never comes. i wish the word ends. i wish i wake up the next day and found myself dead. sudden death. i wish i live in fantasy. i wish i have superpower. but, i am just a human.
dont want to live in regret and things have to go on whether i like it or not. stay positive. and i would be home soon and this is the price i have to pay.
